wandertheworld

“You and me, me and you, where you go, i’ll go too, i’m with you” -I’m With You

Thank you Jesus that you love me enough to comfort me in times of need, and that you don’t let me slip out of your hands. Until this time passes, I know you are with me, and that you are with me even beyond the hardship. You are always with me. And you are so holy and wonderful and so worthy of praise. I’m so thankful for you, you are my portion forever. And you are so worthy, so worthy to be praised. Thank you for saving me. For working things together for good for me, so that I could come to know you. And to bring you glory.

“But you, O Lord, are a shield around me; you are my glory, the one who holds my head high. I cried out to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy mountain.” Psalm 3:3-4

“As long as we are “rich,” particularly in the area of pride or independence, God can do nothing for us. It is only when we get hungry spiritually that we receive the Holy Spirit. The gift of the essential nature of God is placed and made effective in us by the Holy Spirit. He imparts to us the quickening life of Jesus, making us truly alive. He takes that which was “beyond” us and places it “within” us. And immediately, once “the beyond” has come “within,” it rises up to “the above,” and we are lifted into the kingdom where Jesus lives and reigns.”

-Oswald Chambers

One of the hardest things for me is to just give up the things I want to God, to become completely dependent upon Him. But He is so much more than me. He is completely aware of what I need, what I want, and the plan of my life. And He is sovereign and completely capable of giving me everything I need and everything he wants for me. 

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” Matthew 6:25-34

Today I worked serving food to people who were homeless, couldn’t afford food, the elderly, people who were out of town, basically anyone who had no where to go for thanksgiving. The Lord blessed me with serving a family with three little kids and very grateful parents. There’s no better feeling than seeing a smiling mom with a full family. It was wonderful getting to see all the people just being served and those who were serving being so fulfilled. But the thing that caught my eye most of all was one man. He was dressed in his army uniform carrying plates filled with food and picking up trash wherever it was needed. It practically brought me to tears to be honest. Here’s a man who serves non stop, away from everything he knows and loves, and on his break, chooses to serve those less fortunate than he is. It was extremely moving and I wish I could have gotten a picture because it really makes me thankful, and realize that there is always something more to do, always time for getting out of our own comfort zones or away from our wants and needs to serve. How wonderful to see someone be so honorable and humble. So thankful for him and for my family and friends today. Happy Thanksgiving!

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

This weekend I visited Biola University with a good friend and got to see the campus and hang out with friends who go there. It was raining really hard and it was kind of sketchy getting home but we made it. I dropped her off at her grandmas and started on my way home. As I was on my way I passed the gas station and then decided to turn around because I only had a little more than a quarter of a tank left. I finished getting gas and proceeded on my way home when I saw a pretty gnarly car accident. I parked my car and went across the street and looked at the flipped car, dialing 911 and saw someone I knew get out of the car. Him and his girlfriend were fine but it really shook me up, seeing that one of my best friends had gotten in a car accident last spring, and the memories still haven’t left me yet. I went home shaking and starting to cry and as the scene played back in my head again and again, I thanked God for keeping them safe but also wondered why he would have put me there to see such a scary thing happen, since I’m still feel scarred from the last one. But the thing is, the more I thought about it, the more I realized how strange it was that I actually saw it, since i wasn’t even planning to stop for gas. I then started to realize that there is a reason that I was there…it wasn’t by accident, it was by God’s grace. I don’t know what the reason is, but I’m praying that God would reveal it to me somehow. God is a fair and just God and he is protecting people, even though they have no idea and have no relationship with the Lord. I’m thankful that he protected my friend today, but I’m hoping even more so that he and his girlfriend will be overwhelmed with God’s mercy and realize that there’s something missing in their lives.

“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good! His faithful love endures forever.” 1 Chronicles 16:34 

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.” Philippians 4:6

At this point, I have become utterly confused about college. Should I go off to college, should I stay here and go to CC? Do I spend tons of money or do I try and save? Do I go straight to a four year or transfer? Do I stay in state or go out? And most importantly out of all these questions, God, where do you want me? I have become overwhelmed, and as much as I want to know where God wants me, I have at times, overlooked that and asked myself all these questions. And why? To stress myself out when I don’t need to? God tells us to not worry. To not be anxious about anything. And he will provide us with everything that we need and those things will be far more wonderful than anything we have ever imagined. It’s hard to think that God already knows my roommates, and my classes, and my major, and who I’m going to marry, and the job I’m going to have…but the wonderfully amazing thing is, is that he does. I don’t need to worry, because he outreaches his mighty hand and offers to carry all the weight I have been trudging along with. My God is an awesome God and I am constantly in awe of how wonderful he truly is. 

“So I died to the law-I stopped trying to meet all its requirements-so that I may live for God. My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not treat the grace of God as meanlingless. For if keeping the law could make us right with God, then there was no need for Christ to die.” Galatians 2:20-21

There are so many reasons to be thankful for God sending his son to die a death he didn’t deserve. And this is definitely one of them. I am so thankful that God doesn’t just judge us solely on how we obey the law, because I would never be able to ever live up to such standards. I am sinful and I lack so many things. But God in his overwhelming grace, allows me to be saved not just by my works, but also by my faith and my love for Him. He is such a worthy God and he is worthy to be praised. I only wish that I would spend more of my time just focusing on how wonderful he is instead of falling into the traps of this world and forgetting that I have the most wonderful creator in the world right in front of me. It makes no sense that he would die for me. But he did, and I don’t deserve it. And because of that alone, God is so worthy.