My heart and my head are in war. I want to move on and let go and I just want to stay exactly where I am. I know you’ll never feel the same way I do, and I know things will never change, but my mind won’t stop hoping for it and my heart won’t stop aching. All I can hope is that these months away will do me good and that I can move on and not want more than to just be friends. Lord change the love I feel from a romantic love to a Christ like love. That’s all I can ask.
To be honest, I don’t really know how many people actually read my blog, but I am in need of prayer and financial support for my trip to Lugazi, Uganda this summer. I am going to Faith Children’s Home in Lugazi, and will be serving and loving on the kids there during my time in Africa. Just take a look at their website and please lift up your prayers for these kids and for my team. The total amount I have to raise is $3,200 and I have already raised a little less than half of the money so far. God has really been providing and I pray that He would continue to do that through people who have a heart to give. Here is the website of the orphanage… http://www.faithchildrenshomeuganda.com/home. Also, if you have a heart to give, please please do, even if it is only $5, it helps. And if you can’t, please pray. Pray for our team to love on these kids and serve in a way that please the Lord and that we would not go as people thinking we are going to change the world, but that we would go as humble servants going to serve God and his kingdom. Here is the website to give, https://secure.westmont.edu/cgi-bin/WebObjects/creditCardProcessing.woa/wa/donate?custom=wsm. When filling this out, please click on the option of ‘Emmaus Road’ and when prompted, ‘Given the gift on behalf of…’ put in my name, Teka Gabaldon. Thank you so much for your potential prayers and financial support, both are much appreciated.
And I will call upon your name, And keep my eyes above the waves, When oceans rise, My soul will rest in Your embrace, for I am Yours and You are mine.
Your grace abounds in deepest waters, Your sovereign hand, Will be my guide, Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me, You’ve never failed and You won’t start now.
(Oceans; Hillsong United)
When has God ever failed me? To be honest I cannot think of one single time. And you know why? Because it’s never happened, and it never will. God is so faithful, and even when things don’t go my way, it doesn’t mean that God is somehow failing me. That is never true, and will never be true. Today I prayed for a lot of things, and I found myself praying for his wife. For him to be so blessed by her, to have him finally feel at home when he is with her, that she would be so full of life, so full of God, and so lovely, that she would truly be the perfect woman that he has always searched for. As hard as that was to pray, it wasn’t. I want him to be happy more than anything in this world. And I know that she will be one of those most amazing women this Earth has ever seen because He is one of the most incredible men this Earth has been blessed to have on it. I can be afraid, or I can trust that God has the most amazing plan for me that I could ever imagine. Just like the song says it so beautifully, “You’ve never failed and you won’t start now.” Lord thank you for being the glue, for being right there to catch me when things start to fall apart, and there when everything is going right too. You will never fail me, and You will bless Kevin more than he ever believes, and I am so thankful for that. Bless him Lord, above anything he deserves, and beyond anything he could ever hope for. He does truly deserve it Lord and he is such a man of God who I respect so much. Love on him Lord.